Church Hurts - Cris Paulson

“All I’ve ever done is seek You God—why are You hiding Yourself?”
“God, where is the love in Your church?”
“Do You see me as a person or just a worker?”

These were the screams in my head. As a pastor’s wife, I worked to earn love from God, my husband and 100 adults. I was the perfect servant/ homeschooling mom/ Sunday School teacher/ prayer partner until I couldn’t function anymore; I was killing myself to please a God who never seemed pleased. I heard self-righteousness, guilt, pleas for money and sacrifice at church but did not meet the God of love I knew about.

Perform for approval? Got it. Grace? No clue.

I left my husband of 24 years and was fired from all my ministries. Only after my divorce did I experience God’s still, small voice speak kind, soft words in my ear. God was infinitely patient and gentle with my shattered heart and answered my tiny, faithless prayer requests. My life has been transformed over the last 10 years, based on His tender care. I hope to introduce you to the God of love in this workshop.

• Sinful Saints
• Secrets of a Pastor’s Wife
• Saving Your Soul
• Sharing Your Passion
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The church hasn’t changed much, but I have! I can be the woman God made me to be now, and use all my talents to praise and honor Him. Forgiveness brings freedom, God gives grace; you can have abundant life and live in joy.