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Her Life Liberated Me

5/7/2018

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By Lora Armendariz
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Micaela, 6 days new. Falling Star Photography
All those tubes and monitors frightened me. Her tiny body lay a breath away from Heaven. 

She pulled through. A new fear settled in my heart. We were bringing home a baby with special needs and an unsure future. Life would never go back to normal. 

The first few months I battled terror and guilt. I was so scared. Her health was fragile and no specialist could tell us what her future would be like. Fears assaulted me in the quiet. Would she ever walk? Eat? Talk? Make friends? What would my life be like? Would I spend the rest of my life caring for a delicate child? Was there more that I could do for her? Did we have the right therapists? Doctors? Was I missing something?...

It became hard to hold our little Micaela and simply enjoy her sweet smile or the way she felt in my arms. And that, that inability to give her a single moment of pure love, scared me more than anything. 

Desperate, I begged God to fix my heart. What kind of parent was I that I couldn't love her like I loved our older girl Adela? 

God answered and He made a beautiful offer. If I would give up my tomorrows and live only in the day, then I could rest in His peace. 

I've always been a planner. What I saw as a strength was an Achilles heel to my faith. I had lost that illusion of control and without it, I faltered. 

Micaela's life liberated me. I had to let go. I had to give God all our tomorrows and rest in His provision of the day...day after day after day. 

Today Micaela ate a Graham cracker in my arms and giggled when her favorite song came on. She is precious to me. Precious because she is my daughter. Precious to me because her life brought me freedom.
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Are you striving to control your future or are you resting in God's promises?

To read more about Lora and her ministry, The Beautiful Day Project, go to loraarmendariz.com.
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